Two completely different feelings.

I meant it when I said I love you. And each time I say it my heart dances it’s way into your possession. I never thought I could have so much love for one person. It hurts sometimes…to be so close. I rebuke the option for there to be an end, but it doesn’t stop that one little question: What if? It haunts me day and night. That there could be a better love than mine. But will hold fast to what we have now. Knowing that there is no other way we could have worked. For if it weren’t for that one night we would have never been.

Purpose is what we’ve found.

So I will hold on for as long as I am permitted.

It’s amazing how freeing forgiveness really is.

Today, I truly forgave my dad. I thought I did when he said ‘sorry’, but it was clear that I wasn’t when my boyfriend, Thomas, had to tell me to bite my tongue when I was venting to him about my father. He could hear the judgement, anger and hurt I had towards my father.

This also started to show in my own relationship with Thomas. Even though I trusted him, it didn’t show it very well.

As I let go of the judgement, anger, and hurt, I started to have a peace about my relationship with my family AND my relationship with Thomas. 

Forgiveness is just wonderful. You should try it some time…SOON.

“Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you” Colossians 3:13

Your sanity is at risk!

Before you can really start to move forward in your walk of purpose with the Lord – you will first have to learn how to let your past go…completely

It’s not going to be easy, that’s why you need to trust God, and be aware of who you are leaning on and surrounding your self with.

“Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved,compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience,bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive.And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.”   __Colossians 3:12-15 (ESV)

So my boyfriend of 2 months and I finally talked about and talked out our boundaries. I knew it’d be good, but it feels even better knowing that we aren’t only starting this year off together, but this is one less thing we need to worry about once 2nd semester starts.

If you haven’t made boundaries with your signif, you better. When you make boundaries, it makes doing things easier and not having to worry about how far is too far. It also shows how much respect you have for one another, not only for making boundaries, but for keeping them.

1 Corinthians 13 never gets old, 13:4-7;

“LOVE is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

I know I need to move more. I need to act on the talent God has gifted me with, and I even need to be a bit more transparent with people when necessary.

I can’t keep these walls up any longer or I will miss out and mess up a lot of things that God has for me now and in the future.

“Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed.” -Hebrews 12:12-13