I miss him. Can’t even tell you how excited I am to see the difference that God has done in our lives this month.
I am so in love with God. He has restored my heart from all those things in the past that I was never able to face…until now.
Sunday night Thomas and I decided to take a break. It was definitely a God thing because both of us had the same feeling for a couple weeks. Of course having to face that reality was easier said than done. We both had built up some walls in our lives from hurts from our past. If we continued on in the relationship then it would have just become sabotage. Therefore, we are taking time to allow God to break us and heal us.
Intially it didn’t hit me till after we hung up. I just sat there, called my friend (itwas2am :P) and realized I could not be alone. So I packed some clothes and went over to my parents house. The second I walked into my parents bedroom, I completely broke down.
Now, even though I was crying, I still had a peace about Thomas and I being together in the end. 3 days later and that peace remains.
As I was crying my dad wrapped me in his arms and held me. Then out of nowhere I started apologizing to me father about struggling to forgive him and as a result started to resent him for all the hurt he has caused. After this, my trust issue in my father came off of my shoulders. It was truly amazing a refreshing.
Now that doesn’t mean things got any easier. I pretty much cried from mon to tues. Now during those days God immediately started breaking me. There would be times that i’d cry because I missed him, but I would also be so whole heartedly crying because the loving presence of God was so overwhelming. I just couldn’t stop crying out to God and praising Him and reading His word.
This morning I woke up without feeling uneasy. I took a shower and just continued praising God and continually giving it all to Him. Throughout my readings and prayers God was constantly comforting me and encouraging me. Reminding that Thomas and I will be blessed and rewarded and that we are in His will and we just got to trust and be sensitive to His direction.
Today, just 3days later I have such a overwhelmingly peace. I am believing and holding onto the promise God has given us. Thomas and i agreed to not having any communication for a month and when he comes back to school, we will see where things go from there. I just gotta keep rejoicing and working on the things that God has instructed me to do, keep praying for me and Thomas and all things.
All can say is, amen and thank you God.
Just chillin before I went to church this morning. I very much like getting to sleep in and being able to go to the later service for a change. I got to just meditate on the Lord and just thank Him for all He has done and blessed me with.
Breakfast for dinner. Gluten-free Blueberry-Ginger pancakes with a lil touch of cinnamon. <3
I could go on for a few paragraphs about this movie, but I will spare you. I will simply say this; Spring Breakers and a try hard piece of bull.
If only good ‘role models’ wouldn’t get so tired of being good. What is it about this world that is so appealing? All I see is desperation and suffering. My heart seriously breaks for these celebrities.
I’ve done things just since I started college and granted, most of those things were forced on me, and most might not even think they are that big of a deal, but those things are definitely not the way I want to define my life with or remember my life as. I wish I could go back to the beginning of freshman year, never been kissed and had the courage to pay no mind to the guy who felt like he could play me.
Why is being innocent looked so down upon?
I thank God for redemption and freedom in His name because without His forgiveness and love I could never live with myself in a world like this.
We need to recognize how destructive the world is becoming and snap back into shape.
We need to love like never before and be a light to those who are hopeless because let me tell you, Hope is still here.
Hope is on the move.
"The righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus." -Romans 3:22-26
I know this is a harsh verse, but it got me thinking and really realizing how important this is.
My whole like I have become distant from people; either from moving, change of schools, marriage,….life, etc. you know.
A big reason, in my case recently, is growth. I have found that the more you mature, you tend to move past the others who are not on the same level as you. You have to come to the understanding that you can’t go back or you will stay down. The longer you are down and not working towards something the more stagnant you get and depressed. You then lose your passion.
This has been really though lately seeing as though I have really cherish the people in my life. Even more so since I graduated with some of my closest friends. I have tried to help and reach out, but the more they brush it off, brushes me off. All I can do then is pray for them, and love them from afar, and I will still call them my friend.
So here’s my admonishment;
If you are that one who is stagnant and you happen to have a friend you hold dear, don’t let go of them and don’t reject them. Let the help you grow and be challenged, but you HAVE to want it!
If you are the one who is growing, keep your inner circle intimate and strong. Full of people who will love you even in stern ways.They will hold you accountable and keep you in check with God. Ultimately know when to set yourself apart from certain people, use discernment.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” -Proverbs 3:5-6
The way my sophomore year of college started is a whole lot different than how it ended, and thankfully so. I had no clarity of what I’d be doing in my future, what I would really be doing in ministry, and who I would even be doing it with. I was also starting the year burnt out from working all summer.
Now I know I will be working in Christian counseling in the church mainly, as well as family and marriage counseling. Also to be in the administration of the church and help it function efficiently. And I would be doing it with my man of God, Thomas.
I thank God for stretching me to the point of pain, or else i would still be stagnant and too comfortable to change.
Unfortunately but understandably, my growth has cost me change in closeness of certain friendships or even a cut off from certain people. I know God puts people in my life and takes people out, or distances them for many reasons. In this He has definitely protected me from great destruction in my life.
I can not stress enough how important it is to have your inner circle be filled with people who help sharpen you and encourage you as well as keep you accountable.
With all this said, I am starting this summer on a high note. My energy, my motivation comes solely from God and I will press on and become stronger and trust in God for any and all opportunities that come my way!
be careful who you are surrounding yourself with folks.
This letter is a very sad example of what happens when our personal freedoms and liberties are taken away. America wasn’t built on this, readers, and we absolutely must share this to show people the impact the Obama administration is having on every-day Americans.
When my family and I started our company 40 years ago, we were working out of a garage on a $600 bank loan, assembling miniature picture frames. Our first retail store wasn’t much bigger than most people’s living rooms, but we had faith that we would succeed if we lived and worked according to God‘s word. From there, Hobby Lobby has become one of the nation’s largest arts and crafts retailers, with more than 500 locations in 41 states. Our children grew up into fine business leaders, and today we run Hobby Lobby together, as a family.
We’re Christians, and we run our business on Christian principles. I’ve always said that the first two goals of our business are (1) to run our business in harmony with God’s laws, and (2) to focus on people more than money. And that’s what we’ve tried to do. We close early so our employees can see their families at night. We keep our stores closed on Sundays, one of the week’s biggest shopping days, so that our workers and their families can enjoy a day of rest. We believe that it is by God’s grace that Hobby Lobby has endured, and he has blessed us and our employees. We’ve not only added jobs in a weak economy, we’ve raised wages for the past four years in a row. Our full-time employees start at 80% above minimum wage.
But now, our government threatens to change all of that. A new government health care mandate says that our family business MUST provide what I believe are abortion-causing drugs as part of our health insurance. Being Christians, we don’t pay for drugs that might cause abortions, which means that we don’t cover emergency contraception, the morning-after pill or the week-after pill. We believe doing so might end a life after the moment of conception, something that is contrary to our most important beliefs. It goes against the Biblical principles on which we have run this company since day one. If we refuse to comply, we could face $1.3 million PER DAY in government fines.
Our government threatens to fine job creators in a bad economy. Our government threatens to fine a company that’s raised wages four years running. Our government threatens to fine a family for running its business according to its beliefs. It’s not right. I know people will say we ought to follow the rules; that it’s the same for everybody. But that’s not true. The government has exempted thousands of companies from this mandate, for reasons of convenience or cost. But it won’t exempt them for reasons of religious belief.
So, Hobby Lobby – and my family – are forced to make a choice. With great reluctance, we filed a lawsuit today, represented by the Becket Fund for Religious Liberty, asking a federal court to stop this mandate before it hurts our business. We don’t like to go running into court, but we no longer have a choice. We believe people are more important than the bottom line and that honoring God is more important than turning a profit.
My family has lived the American dream. We want to continue growing our company and providing great jobs for thousands of employees, but the government is going to make that much more difficult. The government is forcing us to choose between following our faith and following the law. I say that’s a choice no American – and no American business – should have to make.
The government cannot force you to follow laws that go against your fundamental religious belief. They have exempted thousands of companies but will not except Christian organizations including the Catholic church.
Since you will not see this covered in any of the liberal media, pass this on to all your contacts.
Did you know your birth order reflects your personality of who you are today?
Oldest Child: The oldest child are rarely bad. They come off as bossy because they created a sense of responsibility at a very young age. They are usually the most bossy in the family however, they are people pleasers. Oldest children tend to marry or stay and maintain a relationship for a long period of time. They are perfectionist and at times put themselves under a lot of pressure.
Youngest Child: They often behave as if they are the only child. They expect others to do things and make decisions for them. At times they feel the weakest/smallest of the family. They are very tricky and know how to manipulate people into doing things for them. The youngest child are fun and very liked by others. They are usually really good at examining and studying people. The youngest child are usually the loudest of the group. They seek and like being paid attention to. If you are dating a youngest child, the worst thing you can do is tell them what to do. They have low maintenance expectations in a relationship. They are innovative and usually have the best sense of humor. They are usually undisciplined, self-centered, and have a high ego of themselves.
Middle Child: The middle child never had rights of a older and younger child. They often feel as if life is unfair. They are very adaptive and can compromise better than others. They are good at keeping promises and get along people really well. They are willing to do things differently. They are very independent and usually don’t rely on others. They are the peacemaker of the group but at the same time is rebellious. Friends might become an impact on the middle child’s life. They are very stubborn and dislike computation. They don’t usually ask for help. They either feel too embarrassed or rather learn for themselves. They either marry quickly, or really late. If late, they will wait for the right/perfect person. They are calm but fierce on the inside. They don’t like to open up or share their feelings.
ohp… im a middle child.. sounds like me to a T
dang i am such the youngest child…
FIRST BORN ALRIGHT
I’m def a mix of oldest and middle…which i just so happen to be..both. hah