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All this to say: How great is our God!

I am so in love with God.  He has restored my heart from all those things in the past that I was never able to face…until now.
Sunday night Thomas and I decided to take a break. It was definitely a God thing because both of us had the same feeling for a couple weeks. Of course having to face that reality was easier said than done. We both had built up some walls in our lives from hurts from our past. If we continued on in the relationship then it would have just become sabotage.  Therefore, we are taking time to allow God to break us and heal us.
Intially it didn’t hit me till after we hung up. I just sat there, called my friend (itwas2am :P) and realized I could not be alone. So I packed some clothes and went over to my parents house. The second I walked into my parents bedroom, I completely broke down.
Now, even though I was crying, I still had a peace about Thomas and I being together in the end. 3 days later and that peace remains.
As I was crying my dad wrapped me in his arms and held me. Then out of nowhere I started apologizing to me father about struggling to forgive him and as a result started to resent him for all the hurt he has caused. After this, my trust issue in my father came off of my shoulders. It was truly amazing a refreshing.
Now that doesn’t mean things got any easier. I pretty much cried from mon to tues. Now during those days God immediately started breaking me. There would be times that i’d cry because I missed him, but I would also be so whole heartedly crying because the loving presence of God was so overwhelming.  I just couldn’t stop crying out to God and praising Him and reading His word.
This morning I woke up without feeling uneasy. I took a shower and just continued praising God and continually giving it all to Him. Throughout my readings and prayers God was constantly comforting me and encouraging me. Reminding that Thomas and I will be blessed and rewarded and that we are in His will and we just got to trust and be sensitive to His direction.
Today, just 3days later I have such a  overwhelmingly peace. I am believing and holding onto the promise God has given us. Thomas and i agreed to not having any communication for a month and when  he comes back to school, we will see where things go from there. I just gotta keep rejoicing and working on the things that God has instructed me to do, keep praying for me and Thomas and all things.
All can say is, amen and thank you God.

Spring Breakers [all my thumbs go DOWN]

I could go on for a few paragraphs about this movie, but I will spare you. I will simply say this; Spring Breakers and a try hard piece of bull.

If only good ‘role models’ wouldn’t get so tired of being good. What is it about this world that is so appealing? All I see is desperation and suffering. My heart seriously breaks for these celebrities.

I’ve done things just since I started college and granted, most of those things were forced on me, and most might not even think they are that big of a deal, but those things are definitely not the way I want to define my life with or remember my life as. I wish I could go back to the beginning of freshman year, never been kissed and had the courage to pay no mind to the guy who felt like he could play me.

Why is being innocent looked so down upon?
I thank God for redemption and freedom in His name because without His forgiveness and love I could never live with myself in a world like this.
We need to recognize how destructive the world is becoming and snap back into shape.

We need to love like never before and be a light to those who are hopeless because let me tell you, Hope is still here.

Hope is on the move.

"The righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus." -Romans 3:22-26

"Warn a divisive person once, and then warn them a second time. After that, have nothing to do with them."

I know this is a harsh verse, but it got me thinking and really realizing how important this is.

My whole like I have become distant from people; either from moving, change of schools, marriage,….life, etc. you know.

A big reason, in my case recently, is growth. I have found that the more you mature, you tend to move past the others who are not on the same level as you. You have to come to the understanding that you can’t go back or you will stay down. The longer you are down and not working towards something the more stagnant you get and depressed. You then lose your passion.

This has been really though lately seeing as though I have really cherish the people in my life. Even more so since I graduated with some of my closest friends. I have tried to help and reach out, but the more they brush it off, brushes me off. All I can do then is pray for them, and love them from afar, and I will still call them my friend.

So here’s my admonishment;

If you are that one who is stagnant and you happen to have a friend you hold dear, don’t let go of them and don’t reject them. Let the help you grow and be challenged, but you HAVE to want it! 

If you are the one who is growing, keep your inner circle intimate and strong. Full of people who will love you even in stern ways.They will hold you accountable and keep you in check with God. Ultimately know when to set yourself apart from certain people, use discernment. 

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” -Proverbs 3:5-6

Sophomore Reflection.

The way my sophomore year of college started is a whole lot different than how it ended, and thankfully so. I had no clarity of what I’d be doing in my future, what I would really be doing in ministry, and who I would even be doing it with. I was also starting the year burnt out from working all summer.

Now I know I will be working in Christian counseling in the church mainly, as well as family and marriage counseling. Also to be in the administration of the church and help it function efficiently. And I would be doing it with my man of God, Thomas.

I thank God for stretching me to the point of pain, or else i would still be stagnant and too comfortable to change.

Unfortunately but understandably, my growth has cost me change in closeness of certain friendships or even a cut off from certain people. I know God puts people in my life and takes people out, or distances them for many reasons. In this He has definitely protected me from great destruction in my life.

I can not stress enough how important it is to have your inner circle be filled with people who help sharpen you and encourage you as well as keep you accountable.

With all this said, I am starting this summer on a high note. My energy, my motivation comes solely from God and I will press on and become stronger and trust in God for any and all opportunities that come my way!

Hidden Lives.

I could expand on this even more, but I have 3 papers due before Wed. I just had to get this out.

There are just so many people/instances that I’ve witnessed where they make their lives so hard on themselves because of the things they get themselves into.

The most important thing I’ve learned this past semester is that God will bless you if you’re faithful to Him; glorifying His name. 

"But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who DILIGENTLY seek Him." Hebrews 11:16

Cheating, lying, any secrecy will lead to a hard, dark life. Stay in the light. 
P.S. If you feel bad or as if you have to hide something you are doing, then it’s probably best if you stop. You already know.

"All things become visible when they are exposed by the light, for everything that becomes visible is light.” Ephesians 5:13

How exhausting is it to be paranoid of “someone finding out”. Live obedient, honestly truthful, holy, loving lives to the best of our ability. That is then when we can bring the utmost glory unto God.

"Whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things." Philippians 4:8

Fortunately for you, it’s not over yet. You can still turn your life around and live a healthier, happier, free-er life.

"In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace" Ephesians 1:7

Insecurities.

Satan is dang good at hitting them, but God is so much better at ridding them. They won’t go unless you let them go. Give them to God and trust Him. It’s different for everyone, but the result should always lead to strength and growth in Christ alone.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”. (Philippians 4:6-7)

""Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin,yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, “What shall we eat?” or “What shall we drink?” or “What shall we wear?” For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." (Matthew 6:25-34)

It is my prayer for you, this morning, and every day that you trump these insecurities/fears that hold you back from growth and just allow God to be the victor in your life. You are far better off in His hands than your own, or any other human being’s.

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One of those days…

…where I just don’t know what is happening anymore and all I can do I pray and hope I’m not doing something stupid.

Those days, where I need to just stop over-thinking and stop letting satan get a grip on me, and let God completely embrace me.

Those days that I realize I don’t know everything and I still have a lot of learning to do, but don’t know where to start.

I have been given so much. More than I even deserve, and I feel like I am just going to ruin it somehow if I don’t handle them correctly. I can’t even seem to correctly convey my feelings to those who need to know.

The Best Is Yet to Come!

Don’t ever feel like in order to solve a problem you need to go back to what is easier or more convenient. That would be automatic failure. Deal with the pressure, and trust God. HE already knows what you can and can’t handle.

"No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man.God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13

If you just give up, you aren’t working to your full potential and you will never grow strong.

Don’t let Satan have a party in your name.

Tragic letter from The Hobby Lobby CEO: results of personal freedoms slipping away.

This letter is a very sad example of what happens when our personal freedoms and liberties are taken away. America wasn’t built on this, readers, and we absolutely must share this to show people the impact the Obama administration is having on every-day Americans.

When my family and I started our company 40 years ago, we were working out of a garage on a $600 bank loan, assembling miniature picture frames. Our first retail store wasn’t much bigger than most people’s living rooms, but we had faith that we would succeed if we lived and worked according to God‘s word. From there, Hobby Lobby has become one of the nation’s largest arts and crafts retailers, with more than 500 locations in 41 states. Our children grew up into fine business leaders, and today we run Hobby Lobby together, as a family.

We’re Christians, and we run our business on Christian principles. I’ve always said that the first two goals of our business are (1) to run our business in harmony with God’s laws, and (2) to focus on people more than money. And that’s what we’ve tried to do. We close early so our employees can see their families at night. We keep our stores closed on Sundays, one of the week’s biggest shopping days, so that our workers and their families can enjoy a day of rest. We believe that it is by God’s grace that Hobby Lobby has endured, and he has blessed us and our employees. We’ve not only added jobs in a weak economy, we’ve raised wages for the past four years in a row. Our full-time employees start at 80% above minimum wage.

But now, our government threatens to change all of that. A new government health care mandate says that our family business MUST provide what I believe are abortion-causing drugs as part of our health insurance. Being Christians, we don’t pay for drugs that might cause abortions, which means that we don’t cover emergency contraception, the morning-after pill or the week-after pill. We believe doing so might end a life after the moment of conception, something that is contrary to our most important beliefs. It goes against the Biblical principles on which we have run this company since day one. If we refuse to comply, we could face $1.3 million PER DAY in government fines.

Our government threatens to fine job creators in a bad economy. Our government threatens to fine a company that’s raised wages four years running. Our government threatens to fine a family for running its business according to its beliefs. It’s not right. I know people will say we ought to follow the rules; that it’s the same for everybody. But that’s not true. The government has exempted thousands of companies from this mandate, for reasons of convenience or cost. But it won’t exempt them for reasons of religious belief.

So, Hobby Lobby – and my family – are forced to make a choice. With great reluctance, we filed a lawsuit today, represented by the Becket Fund for Religious Liberty, asking a federal court to stop this mandate before it hurts our business. We don’t like to go running into court, but we no longer have a choice. We believe people are more important than the bottom line and that honoring God is more important than turning a profit.

My family has lived the American dream. We want to continue growing our company and providing great jobs for thousands of employees, but the government is going to make that much more difficult. The government is forcing us to choose between following our faith and following the law. I say that’s a choice no American – and no American business – should have to make.

The government cannot force you to follow laws that go against your fundamental religious belief. They have exempted thousands of companies but will not except Christian organizations including the Catholic church.

Since you will not see this covered in any of the liberal media, pass this on to all your contacts.

Sincerely,
David Green, CEO and Founder of Hobby Lobby Stores, Inc.

1 Thessalonians 2:12

‎”We pleaded with you, encouraged you, and urged you to live your lives in a way that God would consider worthy. For he called you to share in his Kingdom and glory.” 

  How well does your WHOLE life represent God?

  If you were to be recorded of every single moment, how then would people view you? What then would they think of your “I am a Christian” statement.


"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." 1 Corinthians 5:17

  We are made new BECAUSE of Christ, so let’s act like it. I’m not saying we all don’t make mistakes, but if you aren’t even trying (repentance) then you are truly living a lie. Not only do you turn your back on God, but you turn your back on your self. When you keep yourself from the things God has for you, you keep yourself from a life of meaning and genuine fulfillment. 

Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4

  I am constantly having to refocus and allow God to chisel at me to shape me into what He wants me to be. It hurts and sometimes may seem unbearable to get through, but because I know the purpose He has for my life, I make it with each scrape with every layer that falls off. I am so thankful for the grace and redemption Christ has given me. I have no other reason to live anyway else other than to glorify HIM.

"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:2

So be encouraged to live a life worthy of the call on your life. And surround yourself with people who support you and build you in Christ rather than tear you down. 

"For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up" Ecclesiastes 4:10

"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

Today I had to accept the reality of my humanity; my insecurities. Already feeling refreshed and a sense of freedom from these things. Humbling and strengthening. For sure God isn’t finished with me and I have never been so scared and excited this much at the same time. Growing in God never gets old, ever.

I know I need to move more. I need to act on the talent God has gifted me with, and I even need to be a bit more transparent with people when necessary.

I can’t keep these walls up any longer or I will miss out and mess up a lot of things that God has for me now and in the future.

"Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed." -Hebrews 12:12-13

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