God must have something great planned for this break because so far there has been nothing but trial after trail getting to where Thomas and I need to be. We just got to trust that God will get us where we need to be in His time.
I am so in love with God. He has restored my heart from all those things in the past that I was never able to face…until now.
Sunday night Thomas and I decided to take a break. It was definitely a God thing because both of us had the same feeling for a couple weeks. Of course having to face that reality was easier said than done. We both had built up some walls in our lives from hurts from our past. If we continued on in the relationship then it would have just become sabotage. Therefore, we are taking time to allow God to break us and heal us.
Intially it didn’t hit me till after we hung up. I just sat there, called my friend (itwas2am :P) and realized I could not be alone. So I packed some clothes and went over to my parents house. The second I walked into my parents bedroom, I completely broke down.
Now, even though I was crying, I still had a peace about Thomas and I being together in the end. 3 days later and that peace remains.
As I was crying my dad wrapped me in his arms and held me. Then out of nowhere I started apologizing to me father about struggling to forgive him and as a result started to resent him for all the hurt he has caused. After this, my trust issue in my father came off of my shoulders. It was truly amazing a refreshing.
Now that doesn’t mean things got any easier. I pretty much cried from mon to tues. Now during those days God immediately started breaking me. There would be times that i’d cry because I missed him, but I would also be so whole heartedly crying because the loving presence of God was so overwhelming. I just couldn’t stop crying out to God and praising Him and reading His word.
This morning I woke up without feeling uneasy. I took a shower and just continued praising God and continually giving it all to Him. Throughout my readings and prayers God was constantly comforting me and encouraging me. Reminding that Thomas and I will be blessed and rewarded and that we are in His will and we just got to trust and be sensitive to His direction.
Today, just 3days later I have such a overwhelmingly peace. I am believing and holding onto the promise God has given us. Thomas and i agreed to not having any communication for a month and when he comes back to school, we will see where things go from there. I just gotta keep rejoicing and working on the things that God has instructed me to do, keep praying for me and Thomas and all things.
All can say is, amen and thank you God.
Though the Lord gave you adversity for food and suffering for drink, he will still be with you to teach you. You will see your Teacher with your own eyes. Your own ears will hear Him. Right behind you a voice will say, “This is the way you should go,” whether to the right or to the left. Isaiah 30:20
The Lord gave his people the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, but he promised to be with them, teach them, and guide them during hard times. God expects a lot from us, and many times following him can be painful; but he always acts out of his love for us. Next time you go through a difficult time, try to appreciate the experience and grow from it, learning what God wants to teach you. God may be showing you his love by patiently walking with you through adversity.
I could go on for a few paragraphs about this movie, but I will spare you. I will simply say this; Spring Breakers and a try hard piece of bull.
If only good ‘role models’ wouldn’t get so tired of being good. What is it about this world that is so appealing? All I see is desperation and suffering. My heart seriously breaks for these celebrities.
I’ve done things just since I started college and granted, most of those things were forced on me, and most might not even think they are that big of a deal, but those things are definitely not the way I want to define my life with or remember my life as. I wish I could go back to the beginning of freshman year, never been kissed and had the courage to pay no mind to the guy who felt like he could play me.
Why is being innocent looked so down upon? I thank God for redemption and freedom in His name because without His forgiveness and love I could never live with myself in a world like this. We need to recognize how destructive the world is becoming and snap back into shape.
We need to love like never before and be a light to those who are hopeless because let me tell you, Hope is still here.
Hope is on the move.
"The righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction: for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins. It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus." -Romans 3:22-26